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The Beauty Of Inconvenience


 I am thankful that most people are kind. 


Typically those that that aren't kind are severely hurt (even the cluster b's but their hurt cannot be easily helped and they'll just draw you into their manipulative web).  It's estimated that .1% of the population are psychopaths and 1% are sociopaths. 

Today was a weird day. 

I felt like a new born deer trying to walk with the crutches. It was bizarre and funny.  My kids initially didn't believe anything was wrong so they didn't want to help me.  Now, that they know there is a fracture, they're helping me get stuff to and from the car.  

I get in trouble for scooting down the stairs (can't figure out the crutches thing yet).  I also have no clue what to wear over my cast.  I've been wearing my new collection of dresses. 

Early in the day, I received an email from my new boss reminding me to get the urine screen.  I had completely forgotten otherwise I would have done that while I was at the hospital Wednesday (as Quest has a walk-in clinic there).  

After driving to the first location, hobbling out of the car and falling over my crutches in the parking lot, an EMT tells me that the computer isn't working and I'll have to do the test elsewhere.  I had to hold back tears.  My arms and back were hurting.  

The EMT comes out from behind the desk and shows me her knee brace.  She gives me a lesson on using the crutches.  They were too small but could be easily adjusted.  My weight needs to be on my armpits not my forearms.  I may want to consider a knee cart. 

What initially started out as a disappointment turned into the best experience of the day.  They deserve a nice Yelp review. 

I went to the location at the hospital.  There was a patient in the elevator, a young man with a middle eastern accent who helped me get in to the elevator, he pushed the button for me and directed me to the office.  We were there for the same thing, he even helped me get checked in without falling over by showing me that the check-in system was wireless.  

The LPN there told me that when she was studying for her licensure, she fell on her ankle and broke it.  She also waited several days to get to the doctor but she was able to pass her exams and it was just a story.  I think she was better hypnotically than I - the lesson is that this will just be a story in little to no time. 

She also gave me pointers on how to use crutches. 

One of my neighbors sold me a brand new knee cart for $50.  Her husband oiled it and made sure it was in great condition.  It looked brand new.  I promised to pass it on to someone in need when I was done.  

I'm blessed.  

My doctor never received the paperwork from the hospital but he thinks I'll be good as new in six to eight weeks.  My ER doctor wanted me to see a surgeon.  My doctor doesn't think it is necessary.  I'm fairly mobile and don't seem to be in too much pain.  He thinks I'll be okay with a soft cast.  I only chipped a portion of a bone (lowest portion of my left medial malleolus). He doesn't believe it will cause much of a problem with my mobility once everything heals but wants to see the x-ray first. 

There was a gentleman at the doctor's office using a cane.  He smiled, pointed at me and said "we're the same."  I offered to get the door for him and he laughed with a beautiful Nigerian laugh. 

For a moment, I had forgotten my situation.  

It's great when we forget our worries, even if it is just for a moment.  

*****

Thinking back on my day, there were numerous beautiful people doing little things that made my day better.  I want to be like that.  Even if I do one little thing each day, one little act of kindness, it will be enough to make a difference. 

It was an interesting lesson. 

May all your lessons be pleasant (without the broken bones). 

Love ya, 


S.  


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