Today I am thankful that I am gracious and can ignore attempts to irritate me.
So....my boss called me into her office in late January and said that she had gotten a complaint about "my energy."
She couldn't say what exactly was wrong with my energy (to be fair she hadn't earned her counseling license yet).
I asked if it were impacting my performance.
She said yes but had nothing to say when asked how it was impacting my performance.
She asked if there were changes in my life. Yes, numerous people have died of Covid and other illnesses in the past year.
As I sat there in my mask, she told me to "smile more" and stop acting depressed. I could not get time of work to mourn.
Oh, and I never fit in with the company because no one likes me.
I have to say that was hard because I really wanted to giggle.
Then she was upset that a patient said nice things about me.
This was when I started sucking down energy drinks like crazy so I didn't act like Eeyore. After that, the two gossips decided to run around telling everyone I had an anxiety disorder.
By the way, none of these players were licensed at the time. I think my boss is awaiting her addiction license...but...she didn't have it at the time.
Of course, the meetings became more frequent and more bizarre.
Today it was very hard for me to keep a straight face. I'll admit there was one time when I had to stifle my anger.
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I arrived to work. My colleagues presented me with a gift bag packed with a wine tumbler (maybe for Dionysus? I don't drink alcohol), Positive Energy Tea and a Relaxation Tea.
That was the dig.....those were gifts to help my non-existent anxiety disorder and resolve the complaints about my energy.
I won't be anything other than gracious.
That was very thoughtful and kind, even if it were meant as a parting shot.
I love tea....so...I'm sure the people that don't know about my boss's passive aggressive digs didn't mean any harm by it.
When my boss left, the patients presented me with a card. Their children had scribbled in it. Someone made a beautiful artwork of Winnie the Pooh and crew in the rain (which made it hard not to cry).
Made me wonder if they heard the comments about my being Eeyore. .
I asked if I could donate it to the daycare where I work. I was told no.
Truth be told, the artwork should stay in the facility as a symbol of love from the patients who are moving forward with their lives and hopefully inspire other young patients.
The patients asked me to remember them.....Yes, I will always think highly of them and keep them in my prayers.
I'm trying to brainstorm things to do with them on my last two days at work.
They are beautiful souls. I only wish they knew and believed that.
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After everyone had left, I was informed that many people quit after being harassed in the morning staffing meetings. One woman would cry in her car. Another had a panic attack.
The woman who curled her hair was fired.
I wasn't the only one being bullied.
Given that these were young women fresh out of college, I am livid.
How dare this person harass the passion and spirit out of people new in the field?
Ugh.....
It's a good thing that all those posts about black candles are not in my true nature.
If anyone is worthy of a black candle,
it is a workplace bully scaring new folks out of the field.
I'll light a white candle and pray her boss sees her for what she is -or-
that she learns leadership skills.
*****
Please protect those around you.
We spend so much time with our coworkers, it is painful to see them abused.
That has never been something I could ever tolerate.
Why can't we just be kind to each other?
Sigh.....
Love ya lots,
S