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De-aging

 



Today I am thankful for cheap cell phones. 

I look so much younger in the pictures due to the poor pixilation! 

Or it could be that I'm not worried about people who tell stories to my boss anymore. 

I'm still not sure if the colleagues pegged as the gossips really did it...or if my boss made stuff up because she's afraid I'm going to grieve her. 

I didn't see her do anything illegal.  I cannot grieve her. 

She keeps talking about "gray areas" of the law and that I need to understand that those exist. 

She never tells me the context of those comments.  One of the alleged gossips keeps talking to me about this "gray area" that I know nothing about. 

So - 

I asked the alleged gossip who cries when she's alone what she would do if someone lied about her.  She said that she would pray for them. 

So, I'll pray for her. 

( just like I do for the guy in my past....I'll light little white candles and pray for her happiness because if she's crying all the time, she's going to need it). 

I told the other alleged gossip what happened and said that whoever told the stories was an angel because that person got me thinking about workplace bullying in the addiction field and that insight was able to help me help a dear friend. 

I gave her a nice worry stone made from her birthstone.  It's said to help with anxiety because if she told the boss I had anxious energy, she's projecting.  She needs the worry stone. 

She loved it. 

I have five more days to go. 

I feel very sad for the woman who was said to spread most of the gossip.  She had the second Covid vaccination and was forced to come to work with a fever and chattering teeth. 

Maybe I should pray for her like I will for her cohort and that blast from the past? 

I'm going to need more white candles. I go through about 50 a week now!  

Where can I buy stock in a candle company? 

The saddest part about this is that I know what goes around will eventually come around.  I'd hate to see who the next workplace bullying target is.  

Luckily, I won't be there anymore.  

*****

Now, I'm trying to decide which job offer to take. 

I'm probably going to take both. 

One doesn't pay well -but- the education is priceless.  I owe this entity quite a bit and I'll get to work with the homeless. Besides a woman I work with is friends with the manager and several of the staff.  She gave their knowledge of the field and compassion for the clients rave reviews.  

How can I lose? 

( Never mind….I probably shouldn't ask that.) 

The other job is a contract job where I am providing counseling to folks on a sliding scale ranging from $0 per hour (for homeless folks in recovery) up to $45 for low income individuals.  This is the job that I took the selfies for. 

You know what, I look twenty years younger just because I'm actually sleeping!  I'm not worried about the lunacy of liars or the reasons why they lie.  I just accept that this happened. 

If I take the two jobs, I'll be too busy to wallow in self-pity. 

At least I met some beautiful souls while working for the company over the past two years. 

***

Oh no! 

I just realized that I sound like a Monty Python song.  


Oh, the horror!!
 I'd better to listen to The Cure, Nine inch Nails, Manic Street Preachers or something equally negative to balance the joy I'm exuding.





Love ya lots, 

S. 

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