Warped Gratitude Blog

Today I am thankful that I investigated State Law. Apparently, men who still live in the same home as their ex wives don't have to pay child support. It doesn't matter if they contribute to the home or not. It doesn't matter if they refuse to move out despite court orders.  All that matters is that they share your address. This explains why he won't move. I get it now!! He's avoiding child support. Interesting.... It would seem that the state is giving stalkerish men reasons to harass the ex and avoid moving out. It all makes sense now.  I may have to get a contempt citation after all as he won't discuss moving out and refused to fill out the paperwork needed for mediation.  I don't want to get a restraining order or site him for contempt because I'm not sure what harm that could pose for his future. Why would the state have such a stupid law on the books?  I thought if I started collecting child support, he'd see that I wa...

Today I am thankful for a former state Representative. He taught me something last week. I can't name him but I can share what he shared with me. Christians fight evil with prayer.  Hmmmm....... That's a new idea to me.  I think of the countless people who prayed in Nazi Germany - what good did it do them? I had a Christian man pray for me.  I had a bad morning.  I was terrified that I would come home to dead children and my wacko ex. I was in tears and debating on taking a day off to go to the courthouse and get a restraining order. A Christian man immediately stopped what he was doing and prayed for me. No....my skin didn't burn and demons didn't cause me to writhe in pain. I remembered what the former lawmaker said. Don't act....just pray.  Fighting dark with light?  That's a weird concept for me. As a Pagan, I believe that black magick (evil) can only be fought with black magick (evil). Wh...

Today I am thankful for the premonitions of another therapist. She told me that she thinks I'm going to be murdered.  She asked me to do whatever it takes to stay safe.  In taking to her today, I got the sense that she thought today was going to be the last  time she saw me alive.  She's afraid for me.  She thinks Michael is going to murder me when the day comes for him to move out of the house.  I feel it, too.  I can't go to the local domestic violence safe house.  My daughter just turned 18.  The safe house told me that they'd turn her away.  ****** I wish I knew what I was dealing with.  I don't.  Yeah, I'm angry.  I joke about my religion.  I guess I can go to Hades.  Or go be with Osiris and tell him about the US Media and government harassing people who honor his wife. Death doesn't scare me.  My children being harmed scares me.  I a...

Today I am disgusted by the NSA and Paypal. I am Pagan.  One of my favorite deities is the Goddess Isis.  In Christianity, Isis would be the equivalent of Mary, the mother of Jesus.  I made a purchase of a necklace to remind me of her archetype and of the gifts she gives to mankind.... the gifts of love, the gift of life.... Paypal is holding my money because they want to send the transaction to the NSA to review before paying the artist who created the necklace.  I'm disgusted.  Well....it seems I need to get back to being the witch I truly am. Tonight I'm too busy playing with my calamus, vetiver, bergamot and licorice root to find a remedy for this situation.  While I'm grinding the herbs with my mortar and pestle, I'll make an extra batch..... These herbs make an odorless perfume that compels people to do your bidding.  I'm using it to try to convince someone to honor a certain legal agreement. ...

Today I am thankful....I'm not sure for what..... I hired a lawyer.  I paid my retainer. I was told that I can handle it on my own.  I can't tell you what he said I need to do........ he truly believes that I can do it on my own.... no lawyer is necessary.  He took the retainer money because he thinks there are going to be other issues cropping up. I basically have two choices; restraining order or contempt citation. That's it. I don't need a lawyer to fix that. If I'm being stalked by my former in-laws, the lawyer offered to stand with me in court while I get the restraining orders.  He's an older gentleman, who wears blue jeans and a cowboy hat.  He's fairly quiet.  I have faith he knows what he's doing.  He's reached out to me twice in five years.  This is something he's seen many times before. I trust him. I just don't trust the information that I am receiving from my environment. I don'...

Today I am thankful that I can just write notes. I sell insurance to people in Hawaii. For that reason, I usually work until midnight.  I came home on Friday and found the garage door wide open. I thought maybe Michael had forgotten to close it. This morning, as I lay in bed trying to catch up on my sleep, I heard Michael leave at 6:30 to take our eldest to school.  I heard the door open again just a few minutes later - I assumed it was Michael coming back to pick something up.  It closed shortly after. Well.....Michael came back ten minutes later.  I asked him if he forgot something and had to come back.  He said "no."  He also claimed that he did not come back just a few minutes after leaving. I gave up. I retained a lawyer today.  I can't say anything more - I just realized that my computers were hacked so lawyers couldn't communicate with me very well.  This lawyer answered a plea I made on a forum.  He remembered ...

Today I am thankful that I have a place to document the weirdness that has become my life. I came home from work about midnight. The garage door was open. The door leading to the garage was unlocked.  The motion detection light in the driveway was on prior to my coming close to the house. This is weird. I'm thinking I'll need to get an updated garage door opener. Love ya, S

Today I am thankful for my new computer.  I can't use it.  I don't have internet access at my office.  I took my $200 steal to my office and began to set it up.  I got as far as I could go without needing wifi.  I brought the computer home. I turned it on.  It didn't take five minutes before I received a warning stating that an IP address belonging to my ex-husband's Lenovo computer had attached itself to my new computer. I haven't turned it on since.  I checked my other computer.  Sure enough.....his Lenovo is attached to this computer, too.  At first he denied it.  I had to show him.  He claims he doesn't know how it happened.  I don't know.  Maybe our home has a network of some sort.  I need to find a way to move him out.  I can't use my computer until he is gone.  The weird thing is that his computer shows my IP address on the email addresses he sends to me.  It's strange...

Today I am thankful for fantasies that almost come true.   This morning, I ran around town looking for a power cord to a speaker that I use for office music.  It wasn't as hard as I thought to find it.  I just wasn't looking in the right place.   I also needed to buy a bookshelf.  I'm migrating my hypnosis books to my office and needed a place to put everything.  I started off at the thrift shops.    I didn't find anything.  I did find a few pairs of brand new designer heels for $1.00.  The cashier was pissed off that I got them so cheap.    No one wants to wear black 4" heels in the summer.  Where I live, it snows too much to wear them in the winter.   I just cleaned them, deodorized them and cut off the tags.    As I was looking around for shelving, I ran into a little boy.  He must have been 19 months old.  He could not speak English.   He spoke Spani...