Warped Gratitude Blog

Today I am thankful for family history. My aunties told me that my mother wanted me to be this.... blonde.....blue eyed.....sweet....like the song. Well, the song pegged my nosiness. I am nosey. That's about it. Um......... I wonder what she thought when she got a redheaded child that looked just like her! What was she thinking?? I wouldn't have thought that. They got it right with the next girl.  They named her Ginger. She was blond as a child. She wanted to be a movie star....just like Ginger on Gilligan's Isle. She's got red hair now. Ginger fits her. She's a sweet person, like a ginger snap. I wear my red hair as a warning label. ******** When I was growing up, my parents sang me this song.... They were alcoholics. My mother was murdered four years after this song was released. I'd rather have a glass of worms than a glass of tequila. I hate alcohol. I only drink it in honor of Dionysus. I'm selfish.  I ...

Today I am thankful I figured out what is going on. I think the stalking was intended to run me out of the house. I think the judge expects me to live with and support my abusive ex-husband.  . One of my daughters came to me crying today - she can't live with her dad anymore.  She threatened to drop out of school due to the stress. I think I have to move out and let my ex take the house. I was given the house during the divorce OVER THREE YEARS AGO because my ex spent most of the retirement savings and could not produce records of where the money went. I guess the house and all the equity is what he is after. The house has nearly doubled in value since the divorce was final. I'm looking for a new place to live. My ex can take the house and get it foreclosed upon.  I can't afford to pay the mortgage and rent. So...... I'll lose the house and the equity. I hope that effin' judge is happy.  He forced me to live with my a...

Well.... Today I am thankful that I'm a bitch with a guitar case. I'm serious. I'm scared. My ex kicked a mouse to death. He KICKED a MOUSE to DEATH. I have to wonder ......am I or the kids next? Stupid judge......letting that person live with me another sixty days. I told on that judge to my baby sister....  don't laugh. She's my younger sister.  She's friends with serious Democrats.  We are talking a congresswoman whose mother is a domestic violence counselor. They have a theory about me.  I'm angry.  I advocate for myself (cuz I'm a libertarian.... they say it makes me selfish). .I don't think they figured out that the girl who got a former secretary of state riled up when she was attorney general - is the same woman that ran for mayor of a huge town twenty five years later. I met a secretary of state who had to wrestle my 16 year old sister from a state funded foster home bordello. My sister claims to be friends with...

Today I am thankful that I discovered that I have a problem (or two) and I have decided to resolve them. Actually, in my world it is termed as the "Spell of Aphrodite." Women who are under the Spell of Aphrodite buy clothes.....lots and lots of clothes..... and shoes..... and jewelry.... and hair thingies..... and make-up. I've met some men that do the same thing.  I don't know if there is a name for that. Perhaps they are under the spell of Aphrodite and Eros. No matter..... Every Sunday I run out and buy an outfit.....sometimes three.  I usually buy dresses and shoes. I never wear them. I tell myself I will wear them when I get my life back.... when Michael moves out. I typically wear dark suites or jeans now. I've done this every weekend the separation was final. That is one pair of shoes and at least one dress every week since September 2013. Luckily, I've learned weird habits since then due to money issues.  I buy winter c...

Today I am thankful for my hometown. I grew up in a small suburb on the outskirts of Denver. Back in the day, this town was mostly farmland.  My neighbor to the east raised chickens.  There was a stable in my backyard.  A rancher lived to the west of us. A local boy told me not to pee on the rancher's electric fence. I'm female....until he warned me, I never thought about it. I lived about a few miles from the original Jolly Rancher factory. One of my first jobs involved saddle making.  I was a cowgirl. I knew the rancher and his wife who told me stories about the cinnamon sticks she made. I also learned what a jolly rancher was.... oh my..... Growing up, it never dawned on me that the structure in the backyard was designed for horses.  For me, it was a place to practice my woodwinds away from the ears of other people. ***** My very first hypnosis practice was in this small town.  I rented an office in the pharmacy/card shop that...

Today I am thankful for being conservative. Holy crap, Batman!  Will the idiocy of government officials ever cease? Now, I have a school nurse trying to get me to argue with my ex. I won't. It does no good. Apparently, my ex promised to take one of the kiddos down for a tetanus shot. I'm a tad bit clumsy. I can appreciate a good tetanus shot. My ex was supposed to carry health insurance on the kids.  He can't.  He claims that he hasn't worked in over a year (don't know whose business trips I was funding a few months ago....but whatever....) He has to rely on vaccination clinics to get it done.  I'm conservative.  I have to rely on charity. There was a clinic on November 13th.  My ex promised the school nurse that he'd take the kiddo to the clinic to get the shot. That was before one of our daughter's teachers announced an event that day the coincided with the clinic.  Since a grade was at stake, he opted to take the kiddo to sch...

Today I am thankful that I see the situation for what it is. A friend asked me to a gem and mineral show. He's the security guard who used to walk me to my car after work.  I no longer see him because I was promoted and moved to a new location. He makes jewelry.  I try to make jewelry.  I make crappy jewelry and give the pieces to talented people who tear them apart and reuse the materials to make better jewelry. Then I buy the better jewelry. A couple of weeks ago, I found out a cute single co-worker his age makes jewelry and I suggested that she get to know him better. That's probably why he tracked me down on the internet and called me. Here's the deal.... My ex-husband's family stalks me when I'm out in public with men. I do a lot of things that guys do. They are 50% of the population, you know. It doesn't matter who I'm with.... I get stalked when I'm arguing with male politicians. I've been stalked having coffee with gay g...