Warped Gratitude Blog

Today I am thankful for the metaphors in songs. When songs get stuck in our heads, it is often because the subconscious mind has something it is trying to bring to our consciousness. I know there is something wrong when James Bond Theme songs get stuck in my head.  I think I'm about ready to ruin my world in a big way. Usually, the sounds in my brain are bass lines.... ....usually from the 80's..... .....usually from Sting, Geddy Lee or John Taylor. Don't laugh....I grew up with Duranies.  I lost a lot of girlfriends when I tried to start a band called Duranged Duranged. I'm sure I've written about that.  Haven't I? No? Oh....well....I had a crush on Weird Al.  My friends loved Duran Duran.  I wanted to combine the two and tried to start a band. We actually had quite a few spoofs written.... The Reflex became The Rejects. Please Please Tell Me Now became a song about a dog who had to go outside and take a leak....Please Pl...

Today I am thankful that I have had a lawyer and a realtor reach out to me. So.... I haven't really written about the stalking incidents because I think it gives the stalker a thrill to see me write about it. It hasn't stopped at all.  The frequency has slowed down but the events themselves have escalated. My therapist thinks that both Steve and Michael are behind everything. I don't know. I can tell you that Steve has infiltrated a group consisting of several of my friends.  They recently posted his picture to Facebook and despite my attempts at blocking him, his face still winds up on my feed. I just block the people that post his picture. The group he joined is about a mile away from my home.  Steve lives about 40 miles away from me.  There are several such groups between his home and mine. God only knows why he chose to hang out in the area I shop at on Saturday mornings. The one by my home is very far away...

Today I am thankful for Google . I haven't had a lot of time to research the issue. I did run a Google Search on Borderline Personality Disorder and Demon haunting. I was hoping to get psychology pages filled with information about people with co-occurring Schizotypal and Borderline co-diagnosis. I found a few but not a lot of real hard research about that issue. What I found was numerous religious based pages claiming that Borderlines are experiencing a spiritual crisis and are often attacked by demons. This is dangerous because it will keep people from accessing real time help. Sometimes people with BPD can get so far into their delusion that they can believe such things.  Why would you tell someone so down on themselves that they are evil or cursed?  That is not helpful!  They need to be pulled out of the delusion not sunk further into it. I don't really know what else to say about the issue.  I would caution a relative to reach out to someon...

Today I am thankful that I can share the secret to passing as black  - play bass. I'm not joking. I look Irish.  My skin is so translucent that I nearly glow in the sun.  My hair is a naturally curly dark auburn. I am sedentary, so my booty is too big for my taste.  In high school and college, most of the men who would ask me out were black.  I think it was because I played bass and sax. It didn't matter.  I moved to a black part of town and became involved in local politics.  At one point, a white educator complained about my activism.  I had caught her abusing my neighbor's son.  She held him up by his ankles because he was late to class. I complained.  The head of Elementary Education in Denver called me and asked me what in the world I was doing in the black side of town. She wanted to know if I identified as black. I didn't know. I told her the truth. I was orphaned. I barely remember my biologic...

Today I am thankful that I can document bizarre things.   I'm getting loads of collect calls from a guy named Humphrey.  I get it.... "Hump Free...." Six!!!  Six 'effing calls.  I am also getting texts but I think those are from the answering service telling me about the calls... YIKES!   This is no longer amusing. Here is a copy and paste of the number. 1-720-330-2195 I'll do some research when I get home from work and post what I find. It could be a horrible telemarketer. Love ya, S.  Edit:   I called the number back and received a recording that claimed to be a jail.  The message did not disclose what jail. It gave another number, +18004838314. I call that and, yet again, get a message about an offender in jail. Well.....I don't know anyone in jail. The only person I know prone to arrest works for a law office and I'm sure her boss would call me to help post bond. I blocked both...

Today I am thankful for goats in pajamas for they are the secret to smiling during crappy times. How can you not smile? Aren't they cute?  I have a career coach who shows pictures of her baby goats when I'm happing a shitty day.... Stalker follows me... baby goats. I start crying.... baby goats.  I spy lots of baby goats. At least I'm smiling.  What I need is a horse.  Horses will eat anything.  It would be funny to have one go after the stalker's car.  Horses eat anything.  I've actually seen one munch the side mirrors of a a candy apple red Camaro.  Maybe I'll start saving my money for a pet. Love ya, S.

Today I am thankful for a place to post these.   I'm still not sure what to make of it.  I didn't know my ex-husband was getting emails from my insurer.  The cops say that insurance companies don't email to set up inspections, they typically call or send a letter. I'll post them here just in case anyone else has this issue. My sense of it is that my ex-husband and/or his family are playing a little game with me.  I had a guy come out wanting to take a peek at my house and demanding my ex-husband's contact information twice at the end of May.  He had a purple ID tag (which didn't have his name on it only a blurry picture and the name of the company).  He didn't have business cards.   See previous post for details.  After this drama played out, I learned my ex was stalking a former boyfriend and started getting bizarre prank calls from a guy calling himself Humphrey. It could be a game nitwits are playing with me -or- the insuranc...