Today I am thankful that my ex betrays the crap he pulls.
I used to think he was joking when he said things like:
"I knocked you up so you couldn't leave."
-or-
"There is a camera in the ceiling fan above your bed."
Now, I'm thinking that these are warnings.
Today I showed him that half of my computer keyboard was completely clean. There was no food lodged between the keys on the side that was damaged.
Someone was inside of my computer.
His response
"If I put spyware on your computer, you'd never find it."
I'm pissed off.
*****
Around 1:00 a.m., I heard the sound of the water being turned on in the front yard. This time, I was too afraid to go outside and check.
I'm not sure someone was out there.
I heard it again at 9:30 a.m. I went outside and no one was there nor is there any water on the ground.
I'm thinking something else must be making that sound.
Last time, I found ashes and water in front of my house. The hose had been cut.
This time......nothing.
******
Maybe the cops are right.
Maybe he is just trying to mess with my head.
I asked him when he will move out.
He won't answer
except to say that he doesn't know what to do.
It's been over two and a half years since he was supposed to move out of the house. It seems like he's become a hard luck case since that day. At first he wanted to stay so he could have bariatric surgery. He never did. Then he allegedly fell out of the back of a semi and broke his hand. He eventually heeled. Then he was traveling and didn't want to move out until he had time to find a place of his own.
I started talking to lawyers. I had a call from someone pretending to be one of the lawyer's secretaries. She listened and told me they could not help me.
Michael lost his job the very next day.
A week later, the lawyer's real secretary had called apologizing that no one from the office could get back to me sooner.
I think Michael hacked my phone and computer.
For some reason, I never get emails from the lawyers.
This is why I have the new phone and computer coming.
******
I shared these incidents with a therapist who specializes in helping victims of domestic violence. Her take? This is what abusers do. They have crisis after crisis hoping you'll take care of them and let them get a foothold on your life.
That's what happened.
******
I smell him everywhere.
It's not a nice smell.
It's somewhere between the smell of dirty behind and oily hair
That smell is permeating my clothes, the furniture and even the food.
I need to move out.
I thought having his family stalk me was the only way he could go wherever I went. No....I smell him constantly.
This is too weird.
It really is.
Stay safe and sane out there,
S.
I used to think he was joking when he said things like:
"I knocked you up so you couldn't leave."
-or-
"There is a camera in the ceiling fan above your bed."
Now, I'm thinking that these are warnings.
Today I showed him that half of my computer keyboard was completely clean. There was no food lodged between the keys on the side that was damaged.
Someone was inside of my computer.
His response
"If I put spyware on your computer, you'd never find it."
I'm pissed off.
*****
Around 1:00 a.m., I heard the sound of the water being turned on in the front yard. This time, I was too afraid to go outside and check.
I'm not sure someone was out there.
I heard it again at 9:30 a.m. I went outside and no one was there nor is there any water on the ground.
I'm thinking something else must be making that sound.
Last time, I found ashes and water in front of my house. The hose had been cut.
This time......nothing.
******
Maybe the cops are right.
Maybe he is just trying to mess with my head.
I asked him when he will move out.
He won't answer
except to say that he doesn't know what to do.
It's been over two and a half years since he was supposed to move out of the house. It seems like he's become a hard luck case since that day. At first he wanted to stay so he could have bariatric surgery. He never did. Then he allegedly fell out of the back of a semi and broke his hand. He eventually heeled. Then he was traveling and didn't want to move out until he had time to find a place of his own.
I started talking to lawyers. I had a call from someone pretending to be one of the lawyer's secretaries. She listened and told me they could not help me.
Michael lost his job the very next day.
A week later, the lawyer's real secretary had called apologizing that no one from the office could get back to me sooner.
I think Michael hacked my phone and computer.
For some reason, I never get emails from the lawyers.
This is why I have the new phone and computer coming.
******
I shared these incidents with a therapist who specializes in helping victims of domestic violence. Her take? This is what abusers do. They have crisis after crisis hoping you'll take care of them and let them get a foothold on your life.
That's what happened.
******
I smell him everywhere.
It's not a nice smell.
It's somewhere between the smell of dirty behind and oily hair
That smell is permeating my clothes, the furniture and even the food.
I need to move out.
I thought having his family stalk me was the only way he could go wherever I went. No....I smell him constantly.
This is too weird.
It really is.
Stay safe and sane out there,
S.