Knowing (working post )

Today I am thankful for knowing.

I am also thankful for knowing a lot of shrinks.

I am doubly thankful for knowing a lot of anti-taxation activists.

I do know that Michael is my stalker. 

In talking to numerous experts, there are several clues.

He acts like a controlling man.  He takes my car (remedied by buying one too beat up and small for him to fit into).  He takes my money without a second thought.

He refuses to give me eye contact when I try to deal with the stalking.

He yells at me when I try to put together a safety plan.

The stalking incidents always take place when he is not around: That means that the stalking is meant to keep tabs on me.

He did something even stranger - he did my Christmas shopping for me.

He's not working!!

Where did he get the money?

How do I know my kids will like the gifts he said I bought for them?

I don't understand how this works.

I was told by a psychiatrist yesterday that I NEED to go back to court and demand a psych eval.

I just want to understand the stalking.  I somehow believe that if I understand it, I can protect myself from it.

I am even trying to make excuses for Michael.  For many years, I thought it was due to a head injury.  Recently, I thought it could be due to dementia.

The psychiatrist told me that he's too organized for that.

He believes Michael is still talking with his family due to his mother calling here on Valentine's Day asking for him to move in with her.

I wish I could find a way to get to the truth. 

I'm thinking he's been fired from two jobs now - he blamed me for that.  Then he claimed he never blamed me.

The Ass. City Attorney said he was fired for telling her that I faked heart attacks.  They gave him an impossible quota to fill and fired him for being unable to finagle a half a million dollars from King Soopers within 30 days.  I adore King Soopers.  They give so much to local charities.  They do so much for the community. I wish I could publish what I saw in those court documents.

I never would have known about the quota if the City Attorney hadn't paid a high price lawyer to depose me.  I learned a lot about the sneaky antics of our city leaders that day.

If it helps, I spoke about how we punish businesses who choose to cater to people in this city when I ran for office.

My family was fined $500 from the local municipality because Michael didn't steal money from King Soopers/Kroger through unethical audits.  That was my grocery money.  It would have gone to Kroger anyhow. 

I fight tax hikes in my spare time now.

I will never understand why the Aurora leadership thinks it's okay to steal money from an abused woman.and her children  I hope someone explains it to the City Manager - abused women put up with lots of shit.  They are mean!  There is nothing you can do to her that her abuser hasn't already done.

Nothing scares me outside of his family.

Nothing.

I could give speeches to an arena of liberals talking about how they are not entitled to my money.

I wouldn't be afraid.

I'm afraid of crazy people who think they own me and know no bounds.

That last $500 fine they levied against him in 2013, cost me $10,000.  They changed a due date on a PAC report and fined him $500 for missing it.  He raided the money he was supposed to give me in the divorce to pay the City of Aurora.  I asked for a payment plan so I could pay his debt.  We were divorced at the time but I didn't want his debt to impact my home.  The City Clerk refused unless I wanted to go on camera to talk about being abused and stalked in front of the City Council.  That video would have been on YouTube. 

That video probably would have put me in danger should Shannon or Doug have found it.  The last thing they wanted me to do was go public.

When I did...things got ultra scary.

I asked Michael to pay it.  He said he'd take it from my funds.  When I looked at the books, he took $10,000!!!!

I'm ticked.  I'm scheming.  There will be a day I will get my comeuppance from people who enabled an abuser to steal my money.

Crap....the least they could do is ask their officers to start taking reports when I call them with IP addresses of Facebook hackers that match my in-laws computer -or- take reports when someone bangs on the door and cuts the hose or pretends to be my insurance agent to get in the house.

I quit calling the police.  They are sure it is Michael.  They don't want to arrest him make it worse. They say that I can get a restraining order without proof.  That's what they want me to do.  You can't get a permanent restraining order without a police report.  A temporary restraining order is just going to piss off the stalker.     

When it comes to messing with crappy municipal policy, I've decided that I need to begin by dealing with the abuser and his kin.

Anyway.....

Michael has claimed he was fired from this last job because I called him after someone banged on my front door three times (what I refer to as the scary knock), tuned on the water hose - and cut it!!!

.....while the children and I were home scared to death.

I called him to find out if he had footage of the perp due to the camera he installed in my living room. 

Yes....his cell phone....the one he got from work....had recordings of my conversations in the living room.  The camera faced out of the window but the recordings were made of people talking inside of the house.

Yes, it was creepy but I thought it would help me identify the person who likes to bang on the door and engage in property damage  - on Wednesdays.  

I don't know if he was trying to help or gain my permission for stalking me.

I feel bad.

I know stalking is due to an obsession disorder.  He can get help!

I don't want to keep putting my life on hold pending his decision get help.

Oh.....the Psychiatrist laughed when I mentioned that he blames his mother for the stalking.  She's blind.

"Is her name Daredevil?", the psychiatrist asked. 

"No." 

"It's not her."

I know.  I just wish I knew how to fix it.

It could be the uncle who ran up to be in public to glare at me - his face within inches of mine.

It could be the brother upset that Michael won't help his mother.  This brother has stalked me at metaphysical fairs and can get very violent on a dime.  He doesn't remember hitting people.  He confronted me in front of  a group of witches.  He went on claiming I won't let his brother talk to him. They cast a spell on him while he was harassing me.

It could be Michael asking them to keep tabs on me. 

I wish I knew.

It's a shame that they resemble my daughter.  If they didn't, I'd carry my glock around more often.

I wish I could fall in love with a bodyguard - or a sharpshooter.

I'm off to go Christmas shopping and switch around a few tags. 

Maybe I'll flirt with a security guard while I am out and about. 

Love ya,

S.