Warped Gratitude Blog

  Today I am not sure what I'm thankful for.  I took my aunt out to lunch today.  I guess I can be thankful for that.  There was a homeless guy trying to sleep in a corner by a defunct restaurant that shut down in the early days of the pandemic.  Dumb politicians don't understand that the Covid meddling in business destroyed out economy and skyrocketed the numbers of our homeless population.  Enough rant for now... The sleeping man was African American.  He appeared to be in his early twenties.  All he had was a pillow and the clothes on his back - a dirty t-shirt and shorts. While waiting for the food, I bought a bottle of water, went outside and slipped it next to the man with a $10 bill under it.  I didn't have more dough with me.  The man was breathing.  He's alive.  He didn't smell of alcohol.  I didn't wake him up.  I left and went back inside the restaurant.  One man approached me to tell me that what I di...

Today I am thankful that I learned to fight and that I'm creative about how I go about it.  Did you know that you can be arrested in Denver for talking to a homeless person?  Yeah -  If a cop asks you to stop talking and move away from the homeless peep in a public area, they'll arrest you for what I call 'contempt of cop.'  Denver was conducting an illegal homeless sweep....again.   Hey - Denver!  Remember that tax hike you passed to help the homeless last November.  This is what your overlords decided to do with the dough - buy more garbage trucks!  YOU PAID FOR THAT!  I have an office in Denver.  I'm paying for that, too.   Know this - you can and will be arrested for failing to obey an invalid command from a police officer.  They'll call it valid.  Constitutionally, it is invalid.  It's obvious, the overlords at the City and County of Denver want to be sued.  I'm serious.  Sad, huh.  I mus...

  Today I am thankful for being a child of the 80's  (or maybe I should type adult child of the 80's).  So.... I think many of us are all to familiar with the Brittany Spears saga and the financial abuse she has suffered at the hands of her father who has taken over as her conservator.  This man dictates Britany's life, right down to the color she can paint her kitchen.  He also uses her financial stability as his personal piggy bank.  Britney Spears’s Conservatorship Nightmare | The New Yorker There are countless tales of conservator abuse.  I had a dear friend whose brother was a political activist.  An opposing political camp applied for conservatorship over his estate claiming him crazy.  He killed himself rather than lose his freedom.  I'm no stranger to the abuses of conservatorship.  I've spent many years training to spot it -and- I've developed relationships with people working in the regulatory agencies preventing those abu...

  Today I am thankful that a blast from the past ex-boyfriend is no longer dying in my dreams.  Nope -  this is a good thing.  For the past week or so,  I've been dreaming that I get impaled in my car and die when first responders dry to get me out.  To be sure,  that is a far better thing to dream about than another human being dying.  Funny thing, in the dreams,  I'm wasting my last breath screaming at the other driver for being a moron.  Wow....road raging until the day I die.  Boy - my dream self sure likes to lay the guilt thick, doesn't she?  Oooh..... Well, at least I'm not cursing the poor soul.  ***** The dreams are possibly indicative of my anxiety about teaching three kids how to drive.   They've inspired me to control what I can control.  I wear my seatbelt now.  Just in case -  I'll wear clean underwear (although I'm not sure it'll matter if I scare myself),  bring my driver's lic...

  The song kinda resembles me....I've got far too much stuff and not enough time to pack it up and drive it to the local Goodwill.  Today I am thankful for three-year-old little girls.  I get to work just shy of 6:00 a.m.  As I'm always in a hurry, I have to take the stairs because they are closer to my office than the elevators.  The cast I'm wearing on my left leg clunks along each stair.  My foot gets number as I walk.  So what starts out as a fast rhythm, slows down considerably by the time I reach the second set of stairs.  I've gained 10 pounds since I burned myself and couldn't exercise.  I'm feeling incredibly unattractive.  As I'm walking up the stairs, I run into a beautiful little girl with dark curly hair and brown eyes.  She is alone.  We both stop and look at each other.  I'm looking all around for her guardian.  She stares up at me in astonishment  and exclames  "You look like Ariel!"  Oh...

Actually, I think I found my love.  His name is Charlie.   Could it be that I need a new love?  Maybe  its time for a Steinberger named Jared.   So today I'm thankful for knee jerk reactions; you know, those tiny subconscious reactions that keep us from dying.  I did stupid stuff that could have caused me to bite the dust a couple of times today  It was weird.  I'm not feeling very well.  It's hard for me to breathe.   This morning, I felt sick to my stomach.  Now, because I run into a large number of hungry, homeless folks... I always carry water and protein bars on my person.  I don't eat the protein bars anymore due to the fat content.  I just give them out to hungry folks.  Needless to say, there are stashes of food and water in both of the offices in which I see clients.   Yep, my recording studio is now my Covid office for teletherapy appointments.  I hate working from home.  I...

  Today I am thankful for the realization that I'm slacking off.  I've been busy cleaning up my life and habitat.  Maybe I'm focusing on the wrong things.  Not ONE of my friends has received the extremist Facebook warning after leaving a comment for me.  I don't get one from any of them.  Crap - I'm upset!   I'm a libertarian,  gun nut,  pagan who worships Ares,  even a hypnotist. I've been told that I'm on a government watch list.  I'm proud of my obnoxiousness.  I even spent yesterday in Wyoming watching fireworks and getting pro-gun bumper stickers, saddle blankets, and all sorts of stuff to remind me of my western upbringing.   I don't feel like an extremist in Cheyenne.  I'm only an extremist in Denver.  Do you know why?  The definition of extremist has been morphed.  It now means 'any person who disagrees with the majority group in power.'  Since communist-type liberals have taken o...