Warped Gratitude Blog

Today I am thankful for YouTube videos. So.... everyone knows I have a master's in psychology.  My focus of interest is Health Psychology.  I currently work with addicts. I had to put a stop to my career for many years due to harassment and stalking on the part of my ex-husband's family.  It's a long, drawn out story.  Sad to say, I believed for most of the my adult life that my ex had nothing to do with the stalking.  He claimed he never spoke to his family. One sunny day in 2013, he admitted to speaking to his cousin on a daily basis, telling her a whereabouts and sending a house key to his sister. That explains how they found me.  This isn't going into the tracker on my mini-van and phones. In fact, my phone stopped working about two weeks ago after months of being unable to hold a charge.  I suspect either a virus or spyware. It's looking like I'm going to need a new laptop, too. A few days ago, I bought a new phone which mo...

Today I am thankful for my labradoodle.  As I'm spinning around, I'm going to make this short and sweet.  It'll be incredibly boring to read. Saturday morning (07/13) around 2:30am, the little doggo ran out of my room, down the stairs, and into the dining area barking and growling. It took me several minutes to get down the stairs due to my having vertigo (that spinnery, creepy sensation of riding vomit inducing rides with the convenience of not having to visit the amusement park). When I finally made it downstairs, I couldn't see anyone outside of the house.  It took me about ten minutes to make it down the stairs. **** The next morning, I noticed that someone had put a dent on the bottom third in my brand new back door (I may take a picture and post it).  There was also a shoe print on the back door. **** I checked my Facebook account and learned that someone using my identity had tried to friend a relative. **** If I can stop spinning enough to s...

Today I am thankful that I understand my ex's motivation to stalk. At least I think I understand.  I could be wrong. He wants to portray me as crazy. I think he (or his family) is harassing me due to my requesting a court hearing to review child support and to come up with a visitation plan he will like. The reason I say this is because whenever I ask anything of my ex, he brings up the stalking, calls me a liar and insinuates that I am crazy. ***** He knows how his family behaves. He knows that his sister stalks other people.  He knows that his relatives all act like a group stalking legion to annoy people they don't like. Yet I'm the liar. ***** I think he will try to use this as an ace in the hole to shut me down during the court hearing. It will probably backfire on him, though. ***** I learned from the city that the cops have not been to my home more than twice (the two times I called them - one over a neighbor parking on top some mulch I h...

Today I am thankful that people are noticing that I've given away a lot of the crap in my house. My ex was a horder. Throughout the marriage, I felt ugly so I started hording dresses and shoes. So far, I've had four visits from numerous charities to pick up donations and made countless vehicle trips to a couple of my favorite charities. There is still far too much junk.  I haven't even started going through the dresses and shoes. Oh my..... back in the day, when my elderly neighbor needed cash, he'd take something I didn't want and pawn it off. I think I'm getting down to the stuff no one wants - he's now asking for money. Sigh.... ***** I've spent the day bolstering up the security on the house, talking to lawyers and wondering how in the hell this shit hasn't stopped yet. You'd be proud of me - I still haven't used my graveyard dirt or lit a candle. I'm proud of me. I even ignored my Psalm ju...