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I've Had Enough


 
Today I am thankful for the sensation of being too tired to care anymore.
 
 
Michael has been out of town.
 
I bought snacks for him and his traveling companion.
 
 
I've been driving the mini-van I've just signed over to him.  It's driving a little bit funny.  It turns out that the radiator is damaged on the side the Centurylink driver hit when backing into the van.
 
 
At 216,000 miles, it needs a new radiator.
 
 
I have babied this van.  I know it like the back of my hand.
 
 
At 1/4 tank of fuel, the engine makes a strange sound when it revs up. You can't let it go beneath a quarter of a tank without putting too much stress on the gas pump.
 
I miss my van.
 
I found another at a local dealership.  It's a slightly never model with 96,000 original miles.  They want $3,000 for it.  If my mechanic says its a good deal, I'll buy it. 
 
I've been driving my old baby home. 
 
The stalking has made me paranoid.  I double check locks and doors several times a night.
 
Last night, I made sure the garage door was closed when I arrived home.  I checked it again two hours later.
 
It was closed.
 
When I awoke it was open. 
 
Upon discovering it open, I thought maybe something was keeping it from staying closed. 

 I closed it again.
 
It stayed closed.
 
I'VE HAD ENOUGH. 
 
Someone is trying to mess with my head.
 
I'm tired of changing locks and garage door codes.
 
I'm sick of it.
 
Michael claims it's not him.
 
He swears up and down it's his family.
 
Here's the thing....
 
he won't deal with his family.
 
He won't help me solve the problem.
 
As far as I'm concerned, he's just as guilty as they are.
 
I am posting the eviction notice tonight.
 
IF YOU DO NOT TAKE CARE OF ISSUES CAUSED BY PEOPLE AFFILIATED WITH YOU, YOU ARE GUILTY OF COVERT APPROVAL.
 
I can't figure out what the hell is going on.
 
I just want to get away from it.
 
This is exhausting.
 
Other people need to deal with their own problems -not create more problems in my life.
 
This will be over with soon.
 
Love ya,

S.
 
 
 
 


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