Warped Gratitude Blog

Today I am thankful for the lack of drama in my life right now. I have learned that.....yes, I have to change my behavior. That is the price of peace. I don't answer the phone for people I don't know. I am thinking about hiring an answering service to screen for Steve's girlfriend and Michael's relatives. I hired someone else to do my social networking so I don't have to put up with Steve or other annoying men trying to get into my pants.  I thought that would stop when I hit forty.  It didn't.  I stopped trying to talk to my ex-husband about moving out.  I never got anywhere with him. I am trying to deal with everything myself now. I'm stuck in a couple of places and may need to go back to court.  I didn't realize it would be impossible for me to remove my name from joint assets so he could have them.  He needs to cooperate with me. I'm sure a judge could force him to take me off of the title to the van I gave him and th...

Today I am thankful for Dr. Frank.     I've been fainting a lot.    It usually happens when I exercise.    For years, I was told that I had exercise induced asthma.   I've had trouble keeping down my weight due to my inability to exercise.   Dr. Frank is sharp.    He's young.   He's fresh out of medical school.   He asked me one question no one ever asked before.   Where do you exercise?   Well.....I like to hike in the mountains.  I have a home gym and like to crack open the windows so I can feel the breeze through the windows.  When I raise my heart rate, I start to have trouble breathing and then I faint. I thought it was because I was overweight and out of shape but soon realized that dieting didn't help the problem. He asked me to talk about when and where I faint.  I faint when the windows are open.  I faint in my home town (which is nea...

Today I am thankful for my latest lesson; though shall not answer the landline after 10:00 p.m.   So....I dated a guy for a few months last year.  I'd known him for three years, off and on.  He'd break up with me every two weeks or so in part, because he wanted to "f*ck a twenty-year old" and all his other "girlfriends look like models."  He'd leave and come running back. After awhile, he'd act like a crazy guy to run me off and come back two weeks later. The last time, he invited me to a concert and sold my tickets leaving me alone in the stands.  He did other creepy crap there.  As far as I was concerned, that was too much for me to bear.  I'm not going to mention the threats and many creepy e-mails and social media messages. Let's just say, he's not allowed to contact me anymore.  I will get a restraining order. I blocked his number from my phones.   I blocked him.  He has a couple of aliases I've had...

Today I am thankful that a month has gone by without stalking activity.  I haven't seen Doug for an entire month. I haven't had screws in my tires. I haven't had my mail tampered with. My locks haven't been broken. I haven't had weird hang up cell phone calls. It seems to have stopped. I don't know if I should credit the stupid spell (due to my lack of witchy ability)  or the fact that Michael is at the house and is privy to everything I do. I guess there is no need to stalk me when one knows exactly what I am doing. Sigh.... Michael lost his job.  He has no where to go.  He's living here. It's driving me batty. I wanted to go back to court to put together a time frame for moving on and out. That's not going to happen now. My attempts to talk to him about it are met with my being ignored. I don't understand. The man buys me Kombucha tea (so he must care) but he won't talk about what to do next. I'm ver...

Today I am thankful for the truth about the Libertarian Party. Our leadership stands silent in the face of bullying.  Bullying is such a stupid thing to do because it draws attention away from what needs to be done to needless drama*.  It does feel like there is too much cray cray in the party to get things done. We let the cray cray flag fly.  Sometimes we let the real crazies (who appear normal) go to the press and make a mockery of the party. We do not solve problems. We use the press to destroy our own people.    You can't win a relay race by derailing members of your own team.   I have decided to leave my party. They are attacking a potential candidate they describe as a Pagan for a goat sacrifice; they say he supports eugenics and a civil war.  I've read the candidate's work.  I don't like it.  It sounds like the ramblings of a sexist narcissist. Nowhere does he say that he's writing fiction....

Today I am thankful for Facebook, it gives me a barometer to measure the crazy crap in the air. I received a strange message today.  It was from someone who went by the name: Preciou K O Love . It was in my primary inbox despite the use of strict filtering.  It was from Facebook.  The message itself was blocked pending an identification request from Facebook.  This was the message I found awaiting me this morning.  This message has been temporarily removed because the sender's account requires verification This isn't the first time, I've seen this.  There was a guy who called himself Luvuby Earnest who harassed me on various social networks.  I wound up putting myself on lockdown. So, I did a search for the recent people who have interacted with my profile.  I have many friends named Steve.  I don't understand why Steve Y's new profile came up first in the search results....all I typed was STE.  My friend S...