Warped Gratitude Blog

  Today I am thankful that I realized the absurdity of workplace bullying.  I'm still trying to figure out why I'm living it, though.  Maybe there is a lesson there.  So -  I work in a bizarre place.  There are frequent crying outbursts on the part of co-workers after visiting with the boss lady.  She lets patients project their crap onto my colleagues.  I get to be the one comforting them.  I lost a great coworker after that happened to her.  So far I haven't cried at work.  Although I'm beginning to think that she's trying to provoke me.  At the Christmas party, she was nasty.  She made comments about my curly hair and then told everyone that she's not going to train me for a counselor position because I won't work twenty hours per week as an intern (even though I am a full-time hourly wage worker and doing that could put the company in a world of hurt as it is a violation of Federal Wage and Hour law).  The comments about my hair and fingernails continued

  Today I'm thankful for make-up -  it's a shame I don't have a poker face.  Well.... I was supposed to come up with a headshot of myself for my new gig.  My photographer is busy.  I'm busy.  ***** Back in the day, I modeled a bit.  How hard can it be to take a selfie?  (uh oh) Work was done around 1:15 a.m.  I grabbed my cell phone camera.  My lip gloss was smeared during the first ten photos (so I look like Harley Quinn).  My mascara smeared during half of them.  I look like a panda in those pics.  The ones that I could see myself (because I wore glasses) had a lot of glare from the lenses.  When I got a load of my frizzy hair, I understood why my boss wants me to straighten my hair.  I straightened my hair.  It's now 3:00 a.m.  She's right.  It does look better.  ***** There are some photos that don't look too bad, unless you look in my eyes.... I look exhausted, annoyed and not a lot of fun to be around.  I think I'll put that one on LinkedIn!!  The

 Today I am thankful for for all those unexpressed one liners that I haven't yet published.  Yep.  It's been busy. There are numerous unfinished posts on this thing now.  I'm in school,  starting a new private practice and working a full time job where I'm being bullied.  Bulling behavior is the funniest shit ever....seriously.... I'm thinking of blogging it because addiction counselors can be bizarre comedians....if they target me**.  If they target the patients then the events just turn in to annoying paperwork I possibly have to do for the state regulatory board or time I have to pay for in consultation with other professionals to determine if I need to report the issue as an ethical concern. Most of the time, the behavior isn't exactly ethical but it isn't quite illegal.  I've been lucky so far because I don't want to ever have to report anyone again.   A couple of decades ago, I reported one marriage and family therapist who blamed a victim of d