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Today I am thankful for documentation.

While logged in to my computer this morning, I walked away to get a diet soda

(yeah, I know...that crap is worse than cigarettes)….

and when I returned, I noticed my command prompt box was open and someone was typing.

all I saw was run.exe in the command prompt box.

I disconnected my computer from the internet.

****

So....

I need a new computer.

I'm told I need to run "netstat -a."   I did.  I'm not sure I understand what I'm seeing on the screen.

I'll take it down to my crush at MicroCenter and ask him what he thinks.

I'll probably just get a new computer.... they tend to be cheaper than fixing the old computers.

Does this nonsense ever end?

It started getting bad in January, the same time my ex-husband started getting nasty.

All this does is confirm what the cops told me all those years ago.  My ex is stalking me to maintain control.

It may not be him, so I'll just light a black cat candle and pray for karma to take hold.

Love ya,

S.

Next day edit: So....I've been hacked.  So far, we've found 7 changes to the registry.

Weird.....

I should probably have my phone checked, too.

I have a very old ipad that I use to research.  For years, I've been told by the police to just buy new equipment when this happens and call them only after I've been injured.  Few people tend to understand stalking.  Fewer people understand that some abusers will use third parties to harass.

I actually found a recent qualitative study on the subject of online harassment which delves into the use of third party proxies.  I don't feel so much like a pariah now.

Men typically get access to your computers and phones because they are in close proximity to them and can install spyware when we are not looking.  I think this explains why he refused to move out of my house for over three years after the divorce.

It also explains the numerous broken phones and computers.

Now, I know why the police are certain Michael is my stalker.

I replaced my computer and phone within a month after he left the house.  I still don't know how he was able to hack my new equipment.

There were break-ins but I don't think anyone made it into the house.  My daughter claims she heard footsteps in the house one day but was too terrified to call the police out of fear the intruder would hear her.

Maybe he broke in?

I don't know.....we barricade the doors when we are home.

There will be a day when this is over....it may be when the kids are older and there is no child support for him to fight about.  I'm realizing that the intimidation is, in part, an effort to push me into forgiving his arrearages and the judgments I hold against him.  I've decided that I will not forgive any of his arrears unless he has something to offer me in return.

By that, I mean, I may forgive his arrears should I get a job in another state that pays well and I need his permission to leave with the children.

I'm not going to forgive them just because I hope and pray he'll leave me alone.  I've given this man so much after the divorce (money, my car, paid his auto insurance, paid for the mediators and so on) and he's never followed through.  Why would I think my generosity would compel him to behave?

It won't.

Once an asshole bully, always an asshole bully.

Here is a link to the study.  https://dl.acm.org/citation.cfm?id=3174241

You can click the PDF and download the paper for free.

Hugs,

S.

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