Warped Gratitude Blog

Today I am thankful for self-control.  So.... Over the past couple of years, I've seen countless self-proclaimed witches who cast spells in an attempt to bind politicians. Why? Seriously, if you know anything about the craft, why would you bind yourself to someone that you can't stand? Witches use binding for love. They are used to bind themselves to other people. This, in and of itself, is unethical.  It is controlling.  Imposing your will on another human being is just, plain flat out wrong. I can imagine that love binding spells create stalkers. I've never cast such a spell.  I had a stalker; a guy would lie to his family and they followed me around for years. It destroyed my life. You NEVER want that. ***** There are people who will claim, well......that they want to bind Donald Trump from pinching women's asses, taking away abortion rights, killing Mexicans and letting businesses cut down all the trees and smother the planet in...

My personal faux lyric: Bitches keep on bitchin'  Today I am thankful that I realize that I cannot escape politics. This thought was inspired by a Longmont councilwoman who threatened conservatives with taking away their rights in a YouTube video but failed to share how she wants to curtail their rights and exactly how she plans on doing that. I think she was mad that they stood on a street corner collecting coats for the homeless. I wasn't there.  I was in school working towards my dream of helping homeless addicts by getting licensed as a drug counselor. I'm so angry at her words and her lack of decorum that I'm finding myself toying with the idea of sharing the video around the internet to start her Warhol clock Or sending the video to a reporter acquaintance in the hopes it'll start a national conversation about what is real. She's lucky I don't live in Longmont.  I really like messing with people who mess with citizens. ...

Today I am thankful for the realization that public transit forces me to socialize.  The worst thing about living one's life in the havoc of challenge and despair is that one becomes self-absorbed.  The focus is on solving one's own problems.  There is little energy or time for other people.  Taking the bus for 2.5 hours per day is teaching me that maybe I'm taking on too much.   I can't figure out how to fix the mess I'm in.  I think my ex lost his job (could be wrong...but I don't think so).  I can't figure out how to solve the financial issue yet.  The answers will come.  I'm just not so sure two jobs and school are wise.   There is another issue with public transit.  It reminds me of my first love.  In fact, ten years ago, he confided that he also had issues with riding the bus because it reminds him too much of me.  It's probably the smell of engine lubricant, dirt and vomit that stir ...

Today I am thankful for being resourceful.  The kids and I have been able to live full lives despite not having a car. We have our groceries delivered.  I order the small things we need on Amazon, Victoria's Secret and Blair (they sell geezer clothes). I've learned to avoid Instacart.  $149 sneaky yearly fee?  No thank you.  King Soopers and Sprouts use their service. The delivery man for Safeway is kind.  Their delivery fee is only $3.99 if I let them have a 4 hour delivery window.  It's not like I'm going anywhere. I like Walmart's delivery service but they don't let you tip the drivers.  That breaks my heart. I'll stick with Safeway. The problem is that my car is so old that my mechanic is having trouble getting parts.  He needs to rebuild the transmission himself and is waiting for the ball bearings. This might go on for a few more weeks. Sigh.... My job search is on hiatus. I have an interview with a California doc...

This must be liberal hell.  Today I am thankful for funny knee jerk reactions.  As of this writing, I have two paid jobs.  A single mom has to do what a single mom has to do. Yes, the government gets on my nerves.  The government, apparently, gives free lawyers to deadbeat dads.  Custodial moms have to pay lawyers to try to enforce court orders while deadbeats get free lawyers, housing, food and all sorts of goodies.  I'm now $10,000 in legal debt....thanks to the State of Colorado eating up the ex's lies.... last December, they claimed he was homeless and sued me to drop child support.  This year he refused to share his 2017 income tax information with me as per the court order.  If he were homeless all of last year and made no money as I was told,  I'm sure his tax statement would reflect that.  I know he filed.  He won't share the information.  I'm realizing we were all duped but that's another story for...