Warped Gratitude Blog

  Today I am thankful for the sensation of being too tired to care anymore.     Michael has been out of town.   I bought snacks for him and his traveling companion.     I've been driving the mini-van I've just signed over to him.  It's driving a little bit funny.  It turns out that the radiator is damaged on the side the Centurylink driver hit when backing into the van.     At 216,000 miles, it needs a new radiator.     I have babied this van.  I know it like the back of my hand.     At 1/4 tank of fuel, the engine makes a strange sound when it revs up. You can't let it go beneath a quarter of a tank without putting too much stress on the gas pump.   I miss my van.   I found another at a local dealership.  It's a slightly never model with 96,000 original miles.  They want $3,000 for it.  If my mechanic says its a good deal, I'll buy it.    I've been driving my old baby home.    The stalking has made me p

  Well today I am thankful for good credit and for knowing NLP. My car broke down. I was driving to see the one client who schedules and NEVER shows up.  Luckily, he was a no show this day....as always. There was a coolant leak.  Michael and the neighbor offered to fix it. They put in the new hose. I tried to drive it to work the next day.  Two miles down the road, I cracked the head gasket. That's okay.  The car was ugly.  I wanted another car anyway.  It was a stopgap car designed to help me cope until I received the funds from the divorce settlement and could earn a steady income. I'm still waiting.  ***** Now, my ex-husband isn't working.  He claims to be working a commission only insurance job* so he can't afford to move out, help with bills or pay child support. I signed over my mini-van to him.  A guy with Centurylink hit the van and drove off.  The company offered the owner of the car $1,850 to promise not to sue.  I signed it over

Today I am thankful for the deluded belief that I am the mistress of 465 Djinn. Ooops....make that 466; I'm having another object sent from the estate from someone in California. I may as well have a little fun with the delusion.  The jewelry is real. I'm not so sure about the genies. Let's have a little, teeny tiny test.....shall we? I wish that Brock Turner and his father, Dan Turner, find themselves getting 20 minutes of action.... by a big scary guy or an angry chick with a baseball bat in a prison or a back alley. Let's see how that goes. If you want to know why I make that wish read this: http://www.msn.com/en-us/news/crime/%e2%80%98a-steep-price-to-pay-for-20-minutes-of-action-dad-defends-stanford-sex-offender/ar-BBtUZpE?li=BBnb7Kz&ocid=mailsignout IF YOU ARE ONE TO DEAL WITH THINGS IN REALITY AND THIS PISSES YOU OFF -SKIP TO THE ** BELOW THIS POST.  No, I'm not a feminist.  A true feminist would not wish rape upon anyone.

Today I am thankful for these words of wisdom;  "when someone shows you who he is, believe him." I didn't care too much about the Amber Heard/Johnny Depp divorce. I really didn't. I didn't really understand what was going on until I saw numerous stories hit the press in which Depp's friends and family started to bad-mouth Heard. Abusers do that.  They get so caught up in denial, they have their friends and family go out on a smear campaign. Depp must've done it.  This behavior is typical of narcissistic abusers.  I've learned the hard way.  I'll light a candle for Amber Heard and pray she can find herself a more honest heart. Crazy people do what crazy people do.  It is no reflection of the person suffering from the abuse. Don't waste time responding to the bullshit, it's done to draw you back into the abuse. Ignore him and hope a woman will become his next prey....maybe another narcissist

Today I am confused: Should I be thankful for coincidences or worried about being stalked? My boss gave me six hours off today with pay. I guess that is something to be thankful for. I have a colleague who loves Ube Mamon.  It's a Filipino chiffon cake.  I'm trying to find it for her in my cowpoke town.  So....I spent the six hours given to me to shop for Ube Mamon powder (powdered purple yam) so that I can make the cake for her. I went all over town stopping at every Asian market that I could find. When I didn't find it in the city I live in,  I drove all the way out to my hometown. There is an awesome Asian Market there. They didn't have Ube Mamon, either.  They had coffee that I order from India but no purple yam powder.  On Amazon, the coffee is $42.00.  At this shop, it's $7.50.  I stocked up on coffee. No worries.....I can get Ube Mamon on Amazon .  There are videos on YouTube and Recipes on Pinterest that can walk me through making